Monday, August 30, 2010

A video clip of 23 June 2010 ultrasound scan


A video clip of 23 June 2010 ultrasound scan


Silly me kept asking Dr Lee if it is a boy boy or girl girl cos I was too anxious to buy things for Bean Bean.

1st and 2nd trimester Scans

Mummy Says:

Daddy asked me why I never do a blog about our Baby Kaiser hence we decided to do one.  But it seems like I'm the only one posting when Daddy should be writing some posts as well...hahaha!

1st Trimester Scans

Actually babies grow very fast.  On the left hand side of the picture shows Kaiser about 6 weeks 1 day.  That was the 1st scan we did on May 2010 after we came back from our Europe trip.  We didn't have any name for Kaiser yet hence we called him Bean Bean.  The sag which Bean Bean was floating in was about 1.51cm and Dr Lee was very optimistic about this pregnancy, even though the heartbeat could not be detected yet.  Initially, he suggested to do virginal scan to detect the heartbeat but I declined and told him that I would rather wait for a while.  He pointed out that the fetus pole for the previous pregnancy was so small compared to this one which is growing on track and asked me not to worry too much and let nature takes its own course.  I told him that I had pinky discharge when I was holidaying in Europe and he gave me utrogestan 100mg to take 3 times a day to stabilise the pregnancy.  He also asked me if I needed MC but I told him I can't take any cos I am a self-employed person and every business is impt.  If I can remember correctly, Daddy was in Taiwan working when I went for the 1st scan so I scan the picture and email it over to him and all we did was to wait for the 2nd scan to see how Bean Bean has developed.

Over the next few weeks, I had brownish discharge, which was a bit worrying for me but Dr Lee said that as long as it was fresh blood, it should be ok.  He also said something that made sense, "if it wasn't a viable pregnancy, it is better to let go then to keep holding on and losing it at a later stage."

On the right side of the picture was the 2nd scan done on 15 may 2010.  Again Daddy was not there as he was still in Taiwan.  Dr Lee was always so jovial whenever I see him and he will always ask where Daddy is and how my mum is doing.  This time round, the sag had grown to 3.59cm and I could see Bean Bean!  He measured about 1.10cm and showing a gestational age of 7 weeks 1 day.  The machine also showed that the EDD is on the 31 Dec 2010.  I hope Bean Bean doesn't mind being born on the last day of 2010...hahaha!

The best part is I could hear the heartbeat of Bean Bean.  Dr Lee said that it was strong and congratulated me.  It was such a touching moment for me to know that Bean Bean was alive inside my womb!  Wanted to cry but held back my tears.  I continued my utrogestan pills as I wanted to make sure that everything would go on smoothly.  Daddy was very anxious and called me up to ask me about the scan.  Told him that everything was ok and I got to hear the heartbeat of Bean Bean.  He was very happy and again, I scanned and emailed him the pictures and chatted with him over video conferencing thru' MSN.


1st and 2nd trimester Scans 

Finally, Daddy was back in S'pore on 29 May 2010 to accompany me to see Dr Lee.  The scan on the left side of the above pic was done on 29 May, when Bean Bean was estimated to be about 9 weeks.  The sag has grown to be about 5.85cm and the heartbeat was getting stronger too.  Bean Bean is looking more and more like a baby now.  Dr Lee was very happy and congratulated us once again.  Bean Bean EDD changed to 1 Jan 2011.  If only Bean Bean is the 1st baby to be born on 1 Jan 2011, then he will get free diapers and milk powder...hahaha!  Hhmm... but i doubted he will be born that day cos I heard a lot of people gave birth earlier than the EDD.  If Bean Bean were to come out earlier, then I hoped that he will be out on 25 Dec or 26 Dec cos that was when we lost our little angel and if Bean Bean were to be out on either of those days, it will be very meaningful to us too. 

We signed up for the prenatal package with Dr Lee on that day too as he was optimistic about this pregnancy.  Usually, people will only sign up for the package when they are in the 12 to 15 weeks but i thought might as well signed up first cos if I go for consultations & scans without the package, it is very costly...about S$100 to S$180 per visit, not including the vitamins.  Dr Lee's package is S$822 but his nurse mentioned that S$450 can be claimed from Medisave or something like that.  So on that day, I was S$822 poorer.


The scan on the right was on 23 June 2010. Bean Bean was looking more and more human like.  Gosh...this was so amazing.  We could make out the head, body, arms and legs.  Dr Lee tried to do a 3D scan even though it was still a bit too early to do so.  Now Bean Bean EDD changed to 28 Dec 2010 but Dr Lee said not to worry about it cos it will keep changing.  As long as it is within that few days, it is fine.  We did a video recording of the ultrasoscan that day too.  Shacks...why didn't I think of doing it earlier on? Stupid me.

*****

Pregnancy Worries

Mummy says:

I wasn't too keen to let a lot of people know about the pregnancy cos a pregnancy has too many worrying factors, like 1st trimester being the most unstable one, 12 weeks OSCAR test to check for abnormalities and 5 months detailed scanning to check whether the organs are developing and functioning properly.  In fact, anything may just go wrong during the pregnancy, up till the moment the baby is out.  Rather than to stress everyone about it, me and Daddy decided to keep this quiet until it is more or less stable.  But I guess Daddy is just far too excited and started to post on his facebook regarding this pregnancy after the gruelling 1st trimester...hahaha!  He also commented on my facebook and so the news spread.  Some friends sent their congrats via facebook and one of my long time friend, Christie, whom I got to know when I was with SIA back then, dropped me an email via facebook and taught me a lot of things regarding pregnancy.  if not for her, I would be very blur and not sure what to do.  There are many people whom I want to thank, like Sis Vivi and her hubby Jon, Michelle who encouraged me with her own story, Christie, Alvin(my ex colleague) who taught me how to cook veg and fried chicken, Selina, a young lady who consoled me and Daddy when we lost our angel in Dec 2009, clients who became friends and dropped me messages during the unfortunate incident and many more.  Of course, not forgetting Daddy's colleagues and friends.

There are people who are very sincere and happy for us when they heard that we are successful yet again but of course, there will be detractors as well-people who are not sincerely happy for us or may even curse the pregnancy.  But let's think about it this way... we must have a balance of good and bad people to make the world balanced and go round.  What Daddy and mummy hope is for Baby Kaiser to be born healthy and grow up well without any problems.

Baby Kasier's Kicks!

Mummy Says:

Kasier has been kicking a lot more since yesterday, especially when his Daddy was playing Wii Soccer.  I think probably the loud noise from the TV startled him.  He usually likes to kick early in the morning or when I'm lying on the bed. Finds it hard to sleep recently.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

How Baby Kaiser Came About!

Mummy says:

I think we are really fortunate to be blessed with Baby Kaiser!  Counting Kaiser, we had 3 pregnancies within a year.  The 1st one was an accidental one and because I was on medication which is dangerous to the development of the fetus, we had to make a very difficult decision to abort it at week 7.  It was devastating, especially for me, even though I didn't want to have a baby in the 1st place.  We even named it Kenzo.

After this incident, we decided to really try for one and managed to conceive after 6 months.  Alas, again, it was not meant to be.  I started spotting and bleeding in week 6 and went to Mount Alvernia A&E to have progesterone injections, not once but twice.  I remembered the 2nd time, I was warded immediately as the spotting became bleeding and my cervix was dilated.  Dr Kenneth Lee immediately asked me to be warded and did a blood test to check my HCG level that day and the next day to see if the pregnancy was viable.  I was warded on Christmas Day night, 25 Dec 2009.

It was painful, not because of any discomfort but because in my heart, I know the chances of keeping this pregnancy was low.  I didn't want to eat anything or even drink and all I wanted to do was to cry myself to sleep and hope for the best-my HCG level could double by the next day.  Only 2 of my friends knowabout this pregnancy.  Michelle, whom I got to know throu' work and Sis Vivi.  I called Michelle and she wanted to come over to see me but I told her not to rush around as she was pregnant then.  I also informed Sis Vivi and she wanted to come over as well.  Initially, I didn't want to trouble her but she was so nice and wanted to come over to comfort me.  I'm glad she and her hubby, Jon, came over.  After a long talk with her, I felt more relaxed and accepted the fact that I may not be able to keep the pregnancy.  They also said a prayer for me and Daddy and surprisingly, I felt a sense of tranquility.  Interestingly, Sis Vivi said that maybe we may get another baby by Dec 2010 and what she said came true!  After the D&C, I asked Dr Lee what caused the miscarriage and he said that most probably, this is not a good pregnancy, hence it didn't develop well and it was just the body's way of expelling the pregnancy when it knew that it wasn't gd.  I also agreed with him that it is better to stop a not so good pregnancy rather than continue and find out later that it has to be removed.  In fact, 20% of women will undergo a miscarriaged during the 1st few weeks of pregnancy, so I guessed it is the way of nature.  Dr Lee also shared his own experiences of losting 2 babies when his wife miscarriaged.  Not all gynaes are so approachable and I'm glad I decided to choose Dr Lee as my gynae.

Some of my friends got to know of the miscarriage through facebook and a lot of them sent comforting messages and some also shared similar experiences.  I want to thank them for their kind words and concerns through that dark and difficult period, esp when Daddy had to travel to New Zealand for work, a few days after the D&C.  There were times when I would look at the ultrascan printout and cry.  The fetus pole was very small for Week 6..I think less than 0.5mm, no heartbeat.

Surprisingly, 3 months after the D&C, I found myself pregnant again, with Kaiser.  Didn't expect it to be so soon as the previous pregnancy took about 6 months to conceive.  We are thankful and exciting to embark on this journey!